black fox

kulath @ 2006-05-21T23:57:00

2006-05-22T04:06:18Z

so my friend dax is leaveing in 2 days apperently... and i hadnt really realized that im leaveing in 21 days untill now... those are the 2 biggest thing on my mind right now...

ive known dax for the longest time... im gonna miss that little fucker... i cant stop crying either, i have never felt worse then i do now...

my world is falling apart again and im panicing. its not supposed to change people arent supposed to go away, i am the only one allowed to go away, cause when i come back i want ever thing to be the way i left, but its not going to be... everyone is leaveing... nothing is ever going to be the same after graduation, and that is the scariest thing i have ever had to come to grips with, i dont want everything i love to go away... not like this... not this soon... just give it one more year... everyone needs to fail... the world needs to hold still and i never want to get older... im not ready for this... not ready at all...

kulath @ 2006-05-15T20:40:00

2006-05-16T00:42:28Z

Once you are tagged you MUST write a blog entry about your 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next seven people to be tagged and list their names.

1) First and wierdest thing about me.... I'm afraid to eat things that are the color blue, yeah wierd i know. (blue m&m's count as well)
2) i have a tendency to push people away or loose contact with the people i normally am closest to
3) i have no passion or urge to do absolutley anything in school, so i dont
4) i care more for a friend then i ever cared for the person i love/loved
5) i hate popcorn but i eat it by the handful at movie theaters
6) im a teenage boy that loves to swing dance

i tag: k-elliot, amy, umm and other people how read this still that havent already done it...

kulath @ 2006-03-11T23:00:00

2006-03-12T04:00:06Z

great party picture post coming soon

kulath @ 2006-03-08T19:36:00

2006-03-09T00:37:17Z

ok so today was interesting, went to try to pawn some shit for dax and dustin made like 20 bucks for them... i tried for more but didnt care a whole lot... other then that dax liz and i went to steve's leather and just hung out in the car so it was cool but hey i wish there was more to do around here

kulath @ 2006-03-08T19:34:00

2006-03-09T00:35:16Z

so you know what i dont believe in you...
...
...
but try not to let me down... (heres hopeing)

kulath @ 2006-03-06T20:35:00

2006-03-06T20:46:34Z

so i decided to give an update on how my new years resolutions are going in order

1. still not doing home work = failure
2. my new habit = always fucking things up with the people close to me... wait thats an old one = temporarily a failure i still have time
3. well i didnt get the original necklace thats very dear to me back, but i have the same necklace just a new one = acceptable pass
4. i still havent kissed anyone this year so i guess im going strong = pass
5. havent fallen in love = temporary failure
6. still havent started working out = temporary failure
7. not randomly makeing out with girls or anything of the sort = pass with flying colors
8. i have given up on ever confessing this thing that instinct said i should = failure
9. not friend swapping as much = temporary pass
10. i have an entire 8 months before i can at this point = temporary failure but most likely to come around

ohh and hey maybe ill update more

kulath @ 2006-02-20T20:39:00

2006-02-21T02:02:10Z

If given a choice between compassion and tough love, I'll take tough love every time...

so there is this girl who about 2 months ago got broken up with by her boyfriend of 2 and a half years... who I like... who is hurt and I cant do anything for... who is out of my reach until she recovers... who hurts me when ever she says she likes me but because she’s not over him wont let me get to close cause she’s afraid to break my heart... who always is hanging out with me and calling... who makes me happy... like Jamie used to... maybe even more... who makes me want to die when she gets a little stand offish... who makes me get so jealous when she mentions his name, or even says another boy is cute... who says she didn’t kiss me that one night in chapel hill cause she thought it would upset me and I would have taken it as me being a rebound guy and not ever talked to her again... who was right... who I’m dieing to kiss but cant and wont... who says that I should fuck around till she’s ready... who by saying that killed me inside... who didn’t call the next night or the next afternoon when we always hang out after school and before work... who has the most awesome little sister in the planet cause we swing danced at a little hardcore Christian rock kid show thing... who is supposed to call when she gets off work tonight... who I’m afraid wont... who made me tear up a little in writing this... and I who haven’t done that action in a long time for these feelings... and I who will give her at least 2 months before I try anything... and I who really doesn’t know how to handle this... and I who am worried about ward... and I who am tired of every girl I am interested in either having some major flaw I cant deal with, being to close to me to actually chance making moves on, or having ex issues... and I who need to get out of this place, meet new people, and make new friends... and to her... I’m sorry I wrote this... but it needed to be said...

kulath @ 2006-01-09T22:16:00

2006-01-10T03:30:50Z

So I just now decided as to what my new year's resolutions are going to be....

This is the biggest one by the way, the only one in order as to importance as well. Do my Fucking Homework.
Start a new habit or to
Maybe get something very dear to me back, well give it a shot at least.
Since I still haven't used it, I want to save my first real kiss of the New Year for someone special and not just give it away like I normally would to any girl who pays enough attention to me at a party or something.
Fall in Love
Get in very good shape, can't go into the Marines unprepared
Act on a certain instinct I have a little less... relates to party thing
Actually act on a certain instinct I have that I have been ignoring since November
Focus on smaller groups of friends (or at least not drop of the planet to a group when im hanging out with a different one)
Get a new piercing

ohh and i forgot to post it but i got a tattoo

kulath @ 2005-11-26T00:09:00

2005-11-26T05:08:28Z

Jon wants more beer... the more i drink the more i forget...

kulath @ 2005-11-24T10:47:00

2005-11-24T15:54:23Z

i wish everything was ok again... like they used to be...

i will never find what i had again, and it truely frightens me...

i hate you...

mallory writes

2005-11-14T01:52:56Z

11/6/2005 6:58:00 PM

Oh my Jon is getting so very very old. It seems like (but thankfully isn't) just yesterday that you threatened my life with a plastic fork. You and your friendship has meant so much to me to me and impacted my life more than anyone I have come across thus far. You've taught me that just because things are rough on the outside doesn't mean they don't want to and don't need to be loved. It goes without saying that I'll be sad to see you leave this summer, but if it's what you want, you know I'm behind you all the way. I'm always on your side, in your corner, and every other cliche phrase you can think of. I love you more than any stupid saying can express.

Happy birthday Jon.

I'm so proud of you for eating the smurf colored icing!

~mallory~

kulath @ 2005-10-23T22:20:00

2005-10-24T02:25:14Z

umm yeah so... nothing much happens anymore thats worth posting up here really cause i dont ever have the time so im just gonna go for an update on my life every now and then. starting now...

well first off i have a girlfriend now... thats right me... sticking to just one girl... its kinda odd because im haveing a little bit of a problem toneing down the massive amounts of flirting that im used to doing... but hey shes worth it, i think i might actually calm down for her... granted i won't stop flirting because its second nature to me, and i dont even realize that im doing it sometimes (gets me in trouble if any one remebers molly... most of you wont know what im talking about and dont worry your not missing out)her name is Misty, she will be going to southern soon and when you see me she will most likely be with me in about a week or two after she settles in to her new place, she awfully damn hot and my nick name for her is waterfall (yet again some people know why and some people dont but feel free to ask.) and her nickname for me is well... im not gonna put it on here so i can spare the ears of a few people. i think things between the 2 of us will move along just great, heres hopeing

another update i like working at ruby tuesdays.... a whole lot, except for one thing, i dont make enough money at all, and the money i do get i blow really fast

and another thing my birth-day is on november 6th for anyone who actually cares and im gonna see about throwing a nice party for that one and i think i know where and when i want to do it, and it will be an invite only thing and you know what your fucking invited so stay tuned for more details...

ill try to make it a non-byob but as i said i dont get paid alot of money so... but even if it isnt byob still feel free to bring your own stuff i mean the more the merrier

i still cant belive im gonna be 18, i dont feel any differnt, i thought i would but alas i have felt nothing as of now... well i was at ruby tuesdays working and crystal and somer came in and crystal is 20 and somer will be soon but she kept going on and on about me acting older then i was and how i was so mature for my age... im not sure i agree but i mean i dont really know how im supposed to act as an 17/18 year old male other then i already am that is. that isnt the first time she has said anything about it either, like when summer had just started and i saw her she was talking about how she was glad that the age gap between the 2 of us had finally closed (we grew up together kinda and 8th graders dont hang out with 5th graders so i understand what she was saying)but back to my point, i just dont feel like turning 18 is that big of a deal other then the whole buying porn, ciggarettes, and tattoo's thing, ohh and not in that order.

but i guess thats all for tonight so peace out.

I am now a dinosaur hunter im getting a shirt to prove it

2005-10-13T01:19:27Z

What we know of dinosaurs comes from clues unearthed in the fossil record. Using advanced science, archaeologists have pieced together the hundred million year old puzzle that is "Dinosaur." We now know that these huge creatures were made of bones and possibly other materials, they were between four and eight hundred feet tall, breathed fire, cast magic spells, and lived in sprawling cities built on clouds. Surely these incredible monsters would kill us all if not for the efforts of professional Dinosaur Hunters who dedicate their lives to culling modern dinosaur populations.

kulath @ 2005-09-12T19:47:00

2005-09-13T00:01:35Z

Universal Pictures is making "Alice," an adaptation of video game "American McGee's Alice," with Sarah Michelle Gellar attached to star for director Marcus Nispel.

"Alice" is based on the Electronic Arts game created by American McGee, a lead designer of the "Quake" and "Doom" series of games. EA's game is based on Lewis Carroll's "Alice in Wonderland" novels, which are in the public domain.

In the game, Alice has grown up to become a disturbed young woman. After her parents are killed in a fire, Alice returns to Wonderland, a dark and threatening place of looking glasses, mysterious potions, nonsensical tea parties and talking animals, confronting her fears and the wicked Queen of Hearts.

Erich and Jon Hoeber will adapt the screenplay.

Julie Yorn of Firm Films and Scott Faye of Collision Entertainment will produce. Karen Lauder of Abandon Entertainment and JoAnne Colonna of Firm Films will executive produce.

Universal vp production Damien Saccani will oversee the project for the studio.

"American McGee's Alice" became a critically acclaimed hit on the PC when it shipped in December 2000. The game received an 83% aggregate review score on Gamerankings.com, which helped publisher EA sell more than 488,000 units of the game and generate more than $11.8 million in revenue, the NPD Group said.

That same month, Dimension Films optioned the movie rights to McGee's "Alice" from EA -- because he was an EA employee at the time, McGee did not own the rights to the game. McGee was brought in by producer Faye ("The Reaper") to pitch the game to Dimension. John August was assigned the first draft of the script and Wes Craven was attached to produce and direct. McGee was attached as a co-producer and received a separate first-look deal from Dimension.

Gellar, who appeared in "The Grudge," will next shoot Richard Kelly's "Southland Tales." She is repped by UTA, the Firm and attorney Kevin Yorn.

Nispel, repped by CAA and attorney David Weber, directed "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre."

for anyone how knows what i am talking about should be super stocked i have that game and it even wierded me out at parts, it was really dark and twisted.... frankly its exactly up my highway... i so cant wait

I am skeptical though. I have a lot of hope for this movie, and I hope something good comes out of it. I just hope it isn't ruined.
(For those of you who say, how could such a cool idea be ruined?! Please go see Alien Vs. Predator)
While I can tolerate Geller, I hope the rest of the cast is carefully casted, because if they get campy actor's and actresses' then it will ruin the seriousness of the movie and I wouldn't be able to take it seriously.
But any news is good news I suppose.

She can be good, it will be interesting to see how she can be "darker", because Alice is way darker than Buffy. And blonde hair doesn't scream Alice to me.

But as long as we're getting some big-name actors in, how about Johnny Depp? He'd be a creepy Cheshire Cat.... and for those of you who dont know what the cheshire cat looks like in this game here is a picture

Anyway, this is a pretty major step towards this movie becoming reality, which has me super excited.

kulath @ 2005-09-10T00:51:00

2005-09-10T04:55:38Z

ill fix the one below later
stupid lazy me...

kulath @ 2005-09-10T00:35:00

2005-09-10T04:39:29Z

I think I found a new poet that will get a lot of attention from me. I will give you three of his poems, no titles and i wont name the poet, i hope that you look into him because he is very famous but for a differnt reason, and his life story is actually a movie... if you comment me with his name i will give you some major props number 1 : Once upon a time, in a land by a shore, there lived a lovely peasant girl, by the name of Sweet Amour. She never had a lover, just why? She wasnt sure, she always said she never would, for men were just a bore. Also, in this land that I mentioned by the shore,lived a very handsome prince, who dreamed of Sweet Amour. He dreamed of haveing children, who would play along the shore, but never knew that Sweet Amour, thought he was a bore. She never dreamed of haveing children, who would play along the shore, she never wanted love from him, yes he, she just ignored. So he gave up all his riches, and his throne by the shore, to show that lovely peasant girl, he loved her even more. She thought him very foolish, and told him that and more, she never wanted love from him, just why she wasn't sure. Now he stands so lonely, on sand at the shore, dreaming of what might have been, with charming Sweet Amour. number 2: Once apon a time when skies were always blue, there hadn't been a broken heary, and i was loveing you. I loved you in a careing way, to me love was oh so right.But love was just a toy, it seemed you played with every night. Why in this time so perfect, when skies were always blue, you stayed with love to play with love, when i was loveing you. number 3: Who will cry for the little boy? Lost and all alone. Who will cry for the little boy? Abandoned without his own? Who will cry for the little boy? He cried himself to sleep. Who will cry for the little boy? He never had for keeps. Who will cry for the little boy? He walked the burning sand. Who will cry for the little boy? The boy inside the man. Who will cry for the little boy? Who knows well hurt and pain. Who will cry for the little boy? He died again and again. Who will cry for the little boy? A good boy he tried to be. Who will cry for the little boy? Who cries inside of me? he is absolutely marvolous.... and thats all i have to say

kulath @ 2005-09-03T11:19:00

2005-09-03T15:27:19Z

Ohh my beloved, how you disappoint me. What they hell are you thinking, you constantly are makeing mistakes and I just can't do anything about it. Your type is so wierd, and I know your real secret, I am one of the few that do. It just makes me wonder about you, something just isnt the same about you anymore, and i think its kinda funny because just as i am becomeing better you are just becomeing worse, I just hope you dont go down my road, because i know how strong you are and you couldnt handle the things i have. You are just to young and i care about you way to much to see get twisted and warped by the influence of other people. God Damn It, every one needs to just stop changeing... I fucking need a cig, like right fucking now...

kulath @ 2005-09-03T00:32:00

2005-09-03T04:36:20Z

~~Your love is polluting the earth like a diesel big rig that hauls trees to a plant to be made into cigarette packages and abortion boxes. ~~

---Scott Richardson

~~I don’t even know what an abortion box is exactly, but your love creates them.~~

---Same guy right afterwords of course

kulath @ 2005-09-03T00:21:00

2005-09-03T04:25:00Z

i have just one simple thing to say, Patricia just might think that Palmer O'Conner is one of the cutest people in the world... here's to the awesome night at the bev gal, it was by far one of the most enjoyable yet. I think i have found the coolest mixture of people, Patricia, of course, and then the absolutely fabulous Palmer O'Conner, Sean, Alex, Palmer O'Conners cock blocking friend, Morgan the cock blockers supposed boyfriend, good old Mike, New Jason, and not to forget drunken Melissa (to bad i dont get anymore free shows...). Damn i need to go to that party cause we will all be able to recreate are absolutely wonderful night, and maybe just maybe Patricia will ask for Palmer O'Conner's phone number...

kulath @ 2005-09-01T17:28:00

2005-09-01T21:32:47Z

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kulath @ 2005-08-27T00:04:00

2005-08-27T04:07:51Z

wow i had such a great night here is to cute girls, in the car next to you, who can't sing whats so ever they make my world go round

kulath @ 2005-08-23T20:36:00

2005-08-24T01:05:46Z

i think im tired, of almost everything...

i really wish all my friends got along and saw eye to eye... or at least could be cival to each other...

at one point in my life i always wondered why i was the way i am... why do i jump from group to group and avoid haveing any close friends... i think i finally understand, its because of all this stuff going on right now... the drama... and its not because its that bad, its because i care to frickin much, i dont like to care about things cause in the past everything has let me down, event "her," which was the biggest one of all time, but hey im strong enough to deal with anything that is thrown at me, except the pain of a friend.
i have never cared to much about what happens to me, just my friends, but i try so hard not to get emotionally attached to anything, cause it just freaks me out. the thought of me careing to much makes me cringe and hate myself for not being cold hearted.
i have tried to give of a noncareing persona but it dosent work at all, because its not me. i do care, i care to much, to the point where if it came about i would have died before i let LM be alone when she needed me, but i have a question, would any of you have done that for me? and don't take that question in a sarcastic mean way, im seriously asking you if i needed any of you, would you be there for me? do i have a safety net or am i just out there to fend for myself, just hopeing that i some how can shoot webbing out of my wrist? (sorry for the gay spider man reference) i have never actually needed someone before or at least been willing to ask for help, but it would be nice to know that maybe if it came around i really do have a few people i can count on. the honest truth will do perfectly fine and spare me from any type of pity answers cause i can deal with it either way. (ohh and mallory dont bother answering that question cause i know your answer all ready, i mean your my little sister and i wouldn't expect anything less then unquestionable love from you.)

but on a completely differnt note "she" called me last night.... it hurt, i thought that wound had healed by now... damn i was so wrong, she wanted me to hang out with her sometime... i said maybe... then we started talking like we used to, turns out she is on drugs again... i think that is one of the worst things she could say to me... so i hung up on her right then and there... she called back and thanked me for hanging up one her... i said your welcome and asked her why... she said that life was getting to her again and that she wasnt happy anymore and she needed it to help her out... to which i responded "you used to be happy..."which i could tell hurt her real bad and almost made her cry... she isnt the person she used to be.... well actually she is but not the one that was happy, she is depressed again, and the funniest thing is from what i can tell im the only one that has ever made her happy, lol too bad for her, it is not my concern if she is happy or not now she made it that way herself... i say fuck her i dont need her ass anymore and i know i am not exactly over her yet, and i still have a little ways to go but i dont need her in my life and i perfer her out of it cause all she does is bring me down...

kulath @ 2005-08-21T12:36:00

2005-08-21T16:40:29Z

ungrateful bitch...

kulath @ 2005-08-10T14:18:00

2005-08-10T18:26:28Z

Random thoughts of the day:

-Since I am leaveing via plane to L.A. soon i have started thinking about the past times I have been on a plane, and they make a big deal about how if you tune to channel nine on your armrest, you can actually hear the chatter between the pilots and air traffic control. So about halfway through the flight, I decided to check it out. I scrolled past about four Country Western stations before getting to channel nine. And what did I hear? Nothing. The channel was out of service. I immediately thought, now what was I supposed to use as a flotation device again?

-Last week I was served gazpacho, or cold soup. Every time I eat gazpacho I think the same thing: this is pretty good, but it’d be better if it wasn’t cold.

-What’s worse than falling down the stairs? Thinking there’s one more step but there really isn’t. You end up doing that awkward lunge where your foot hits the floor unexpectedly and your kidneys fly up into your brain – which clearly wasn’t being used in the first place.

-You know you’re drunk when you spend five minutes in the elevator wondering what’s taking so long before you realize you never hit any buttons.

kulath @ 2005-08-06T00:07:00

2005-08-06T04:14:23Z

I have completely restored faith in myself after today... im so fucking happy, when you can just meet 2 girls and take them to your place and wrestle in the pool with them you know that your a fun person to be around, ohh and brandi if you read this im sorry i didnt warn you about those damn shorts but i thought that was to funny of an thing to pass up, love you anyways...